You are my king from now until the end.
Even though we may have our differences at times.
My Love for you will always be true no matter what
we go through.
You are my king for always and forever.
No matter how we are living in rags or in riches.
My love will always be true to you.
You are my king no matter which way you look at it.
Through our ups and downs, our sad and glad times.
My love will never change.
You are my king and I am your queen and together
we can rule the world just as long as our love doesn't change.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Nupur! I love you a lots! I met u! I loved u with my whole heart! stiIl lost u :( but I'll never loose my luv for u n I'll always live u in my dreams!
Dearest Nupur,
I am writing this love letter to confess that I am in total, unbearable and extreme love with you, and I don't know what I would do without you. My heart is yours to keep. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I never want to let go. Every moment we share together I could never forget, and I am simply hanging by that moment, waiting until the next time I can see you and be held close in your arms. I love you… I really love u you a lots Nupur.
Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. The moment you had entered my life is really a turning milestone Nupur.
Most people spend their entire lives searching for a perfection that almost never exists. Most people will spend their days looking at each person they encountered with question as to whether or not they have found a reason, a season or a lifetime. I am sure that I also was sent down to earth for a mission, a mission to find someone that will complete me. The very moment I met you, I had finally found the perfection that I had been seeking for all my life. At that moment, I didn't believe my eyes as the girl that I thought only existed in fairytale now stood facing me. Staring at my destiny each day, I saw your gentle smile, the smile that gave me the strength to make the impossible possible. With you, angry ‘Darling’, I have found an eternity. You... are on the world ... it’s the place where I am meant to be. You are what my entire life has led up to Nupur.
I have spent my life waiting ... not living, nor loving, but waiting. Waiting for the one that would inspire me to be all I can be, to live up to every expectation, to reach every goal, to know that I may fail sometime but I will never be alone or waiting again. You brought to my cold empty heart the reason to live and to love with a passion only you could bring. Your words of acceptance and love will surely soothe the burns in my empty heart and I will be at peace with myself and the world around me. I know that one day I will come to you never to wait anymore. I love you with every ounce of my being ... "Yours is the first name I call and the last name I will ever whisper Nupur."
I have lived for a long time, responsible for and dependent upon no one, answering to no one and committed to no one except myself. During this period of my life, I considered the world mine for the taking and truly believed that I was living life to the fullest. Then, you came into the picture, and all of a sudden, I realized that I was deceiving myself.
I find that my life is not all that I thought it was. In fact, it is terribly lacking in many things, the foremost being love. Now, through some great fortune, I have found that love and along with it, the one person who can make my life truly complete. You are that person, and I have somehow fallen in love with you. To be honest, I never thought I would ever utter those words, but now, they come forth effortlessly and with great sincerity. I'll be forever be grateful to you for showing me just how shallow my life was. At last, I have a chance to give it depth and purpose. Yes I have decided I will always remain totally yours in thought and spirit. You make it pretty obvious that you like me. I really like you. I want to know if you like me as much. If you do, please tell me. I wish that you would be mine and that I would be yours. If you think this is love, please tell me. I want you to be mine so badly, Nupur.
Every time I'm around you, you make my face melt and my mind turn into Jell-O. My heart beats faster than a hummingbird's. I love you more than chocolate. You've got the best smile in the world, and I love you so much! I hear your voice when someone talks to me. You're the last thing on my mind at night. You fill every dream I have. You're the very first thing I think of when I wake up ... and you'll never know it. I miss you when you're gone. I miss you when you're sitting so close to me and I can't touch you. I miss you when you smile that smile at me. I miss not having you in my life, even when everyday you are. I want you like you'll never know. I want your entire heart and soul. I see your face, I see your heart. I want your love, I NEED your love, but I won't tell you because I can't. I cannot tell you how I feel, because I know you're just my friend. I know that you're happy with that. I know you're not looking for someone to love. I know, I know, I know! But, I don't understand; I don't understand why it has to hurt so very much when you laugh, when you get so close. I don't get that. I don't know how to move on, I don't know how to let myself live without you. I just don't know!
I just want a day when it's just you and me. I just want a day when my heart can sing true. I pray to God every day that you'll tell me that you want me the same way I want you. I beg every day to an unseen force that you will one day be mine. I'm moving away, but I'm leaving my heart with you. Forever and for always, it will belong to you. Don't tell me if you don't love me, but please for the love of God, please tell me if you feel the same way. If you don't love me, please stop looking at me with those eyes, please stop touching my arm, please stop - just stop, because my heart loves you. My heart NEEDS you, but without you, there really is no point. So please, for my sanity, love me, or leave me. Stop teasing me like this. Forever and a day,
I know that there is probably very little I can say to change your mind either way; I am not totally discounting the possibility that the way I feel about you could be reciprocated, but as I have very little luck in this area in the past my hopes are fairly small. I wish I could tell you how every time you don't turn up for work I fear that I will never see you again or that you will get into trouble with people; I just want to protect you so much. I see you sometimes and you look down even though you may pretend otherwise. I wish you would open up to me and let me in to your life. I know it wouldn't be easy but I still believe that I could be good for you, if only you could return my feelings. I know I may not be the best looking man, you know, and I don't have much to offer financially, all I could offer you is my heart and soul. I fear that this will not turn out the way I hope but I pray that it does. As I said before, you may never know the true extent of my feelings although I would imagine you have some suspicions. This may be a crush or infatuation but I swear to you that it does not feel like it, as I have had crushes before but never really felt the kinds of emotions I do for you.
I never thought I could really love someone as much as I love you. We started out as a friends just talking, but over the last couple of months I've truly fallen for you head over heels. You're not one to admit how you feel but I know somewhere in your heart you have feelings for me too because I know you would not have just wasted your time for nothing. You know I care. You're the only person who could ever put this big of a smile on my face. I don't want you to leave me anytime soon ... I told you I'd wait three and a half years for you if you get sent away and that is the truth. You said if that ever happened to me you would wait for me too, I hope it wasn't a lie. I will always love you Nupur. I can not even see myself with any other guy but you - it's true; I'm in love with you.
Our road to friendship has been a little less then traditional but for some reason it worked for us. I know you will always be there for me and that's one of the reasons I think I may be falling in love with you. I know you do not have time for a relationship right now and that you may even be scared to commit to me, but I am patient. I will be by your side regardless of my status with you. I have never felt so connected to a person in my life; I love talking to you or just being in your presence. I also realize that it is hard to tell somebody you care about that you do not love them as they love you. Please don't ever be afraid to be honest with me, because I will always be your friend. Mainly I wanted you to know I will wait for you. I don't need fancy gifts or 100% of your time, all I need is to know you care, and you do that already. I love your hugs and comforting words and I want to say thank you for everything. I have loved you as my friend for some time and I would cherish the chance to love you even more.
You are like a dream I never thought would ever come true for me. When I hear your voice I start to smile with glee. My eyes shine with glee when I know you are thinking of me. When you sing to me, the song you wrote for me makes feel as if we are meant to be. You are so special to me; I pray that we will finally know if we are meant to be with one another. I haven't ever talked to anyone so like you before. You make me feel special like never before. So far, the things that you are doing shows me that you are such a caring person who would love me forever till the end of time. I just want to be loved and have someone to love back the way I've always wanted. I want to find my best friend, my soul mate, my lover and my Life partner. I feel as if you may just be the one I am looking for and have been searching for all my life. These are the feelings I am having for you as of this moment.
I love your eyes, your smile, your hair, your body, and your voice, damn that voice, it drives me off the wall. When I hear your voice my heart skips a beat. Yessss, Nupur, I am crazy about you. Every time I see you, I think I'm out of control. I do not know why I am feeling this way, but it's like nothing I've ever experienced before. I'd like to touch your face to see if it's real. How could I not notice until now that your face could launch a thousand ships? I'd like you to know that I love you so much, more than I love myself. So even if we are not meant to be together I just want to stay with you, 'til the moment I render forever, and ever. 'Cause maybe you're going to be the one that's saved me, after all you're my wonder wall.
You are the only one who can make me happy with your love and affection. Since I have met you, I have noticed that life is worth living. I live mine for you. You have stolen me from me. Alone I can be lost. So, do not let the distance between us become larger. Each day is more wonderful that the previous one as I know that I will see you. Although I know that you will ignore me, as usual, I still want to see you. The further you will go from me, the more I will love you. A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance. There are so many ways I want to tell you that I really love you, my sweetheart. My feelings for you are true and pure ... like a virgin. I have tried lots of times to confess but you are always acting deaf to what I say. Remember one thing ... I love you and I will always love you. Loving you is something I love to do... Nupur.
You met me and … the world changed…
When I first met you I was struck by your simplicity and by your sweetness of speech and manner that it became difficult for me to shut you out of my mind. Your bewitching smile captivated my heart, and the more I tried to forget you the more I began to think of you, until it dawned upon me that I have fallen in love with you. Though you have seen me so many times and I've a gotten the chance to know you in our swimming class, I could say that you've captured my heart. I know that this is not right for me to tell you all these things, but I can't stop it. After we parted, I had wonderful memories, which enraptured my heart as I walked along the lonely path that led to my home. Thanks for filling the emptiness in my heart. You're an angel in disguise that came down from the heavens to save me from feeling blue.
You walked into my life a stranger a mere 6 months ago and my life hasn't been the same since. You are TRULY my gift from a higher power. LOVE is such a miniscule word for what we share. You are SO amazing. You appeared when I was at such a low point in my existence. A time when I thought that the physical and emotional pain brought on by another would never end and would wear away at every fiber of my being until it consumed me and I was no more. During the moments I tried to turn away for fear of the unknown, you planted your heels and looked deep in my soul and stayed. I fear whether you compromised your life and your goals to help me survive... and I am eternally indebted to you. Without you... I would not be what I am today Nupur.
When I was a little boy, I dreamt of that one person that I would share my dreams, happiness and energy with ... I could not see her face but she was there. I always felt like she was out there, I just needed to feel her. I visualized the bond we would have and the courage she would give me to endure life's obstacles. All these years I was with others, and feeling my way through life, learning lessons that later on would prepare me to become the person that I am now. I have felt alone and sad. Then one day my eyes opened and I became that little boy again ... realizing that she is here now. Here in my world was the woman that I had dreamt of and I had hoped would not miss our meeting in life ... that woman is you Nupur.
I remember the day we met. You stole my heart, and made it skip twice. You have been the highlight of my life. When I sleep, I dream of you, when I work, we work together, when your heart beats, mine beats with yours. We have been friends for some time now; not one day has gone by without me thinking of you. I think of you, and the biggest smile comes across my face, I feel warm all over and my heart still skips a beat for you whether we're on the phone or just being at the same place. Sweetheart, just looking into your eyes still makes me feel like the first day we met. I have the same dream we both want, and that's to fall in love with our best friend. I fell for you so long ago. Do you feel the same way about me Nupur?
When you finally asked me out. When you first said, "I love you," to me my heart dropped because it felt so good inside to finally hear those words I have been longing to hear. We have been friends longer than we have been boyfriend and girlfriend. I'm just so in love with you. I promise you this: I will never cheat, lie or do anything to hurt you. You make me feel so good inside and so happy that I still can't believe it. It's so amazing being with you because you're such an amazing person. I hope that we go out for a long time. I don't know what the future holds - that's something only God knows. I love you, Nupur, and hopefully always will.
Let me see your face at least once a day. Don't take this pleasure away from me. Even I get confused when you pass by me and give me a glance! However, I wait the whole day just to see you. You are the view which quenches the thirst of my eyes. My respect for you in my heart is growing each day and now it's like big mountain, and it's becoming difficult to face you. I am making no expectations from you because I am not waiting for anything in return, all I want is just let me see your face at least once a day! It is becoming difficult for me and many times I don't want to see you because this inspires me a lot and makes me more attracted towards you, and I don't want such feelings to grow anymore, but in the end I'd like to say let me see your face at least once a day Nupur.
My thoughts are prompted by the noblest of impulses so don't misunderstand the noble mission I am conveying. When I met you, as if by a God-sent blessing, I thought that I saw a light of soft understanding. What had come over me? I was not like this before. Yes before I met you, I lived a peaceful life. I could go and return home and feel no trouble. But now, I am disturbed mind and soul just researching every moment about you in my thoughts and wishes. It cannot be my imagination or is it that love has struck too deeply and that I must pay sacrifice for Every night when I close my eyes, you fill my heart with joy, and every morning when I open my eyes, you're the first thing on my mind, more than just a dream of what will probably never be. I'm in love with you - of that I'm sure, but I want to hold you, to kiss you, and adore you. If you'll be mine, you'll make me the happiest woman in this world, if you turn me away, I'll be dying. But either way, you'll always be the greatest love of all that I've ever had.
what is asked of me? I have tried to restrain myself. I have tried to stifle and control my longings knowing that I am not even fit to grace your side. But my heart's orders are imperative. Who am I to battle the call of fate? I confess that when I saw you, I had marked myself for your victim Nupur.
I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved. Then you came along... I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past. At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being that we were both behind the screen. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself - damn it - I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore! I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; that you couldn't REALLY be feeling the same as I was... I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you Nupur.
Then the time came when you were expressing how you were beginning to feel which I tried not to believe, because I was scared of being disappointed, but the magnetism that I was feeling was so strong that I could no longer fight it. Our chats became an everyday thing and the feelings just would not go away no matter how hard i tried. I just could not resist the temptation of meeting you while I was not near you... all along I could not believe that you were for real, but when we finally first met I knew then there was no way I could stop from loving you. I thought that if we met, these feelings would just go away, but they didn't. I tried so hard to convince myself that there is no such thing as true love... but you have made me believe differently. We have been together for nearly 10 months now and I still love you and even more so now. You have become a part of me that I will always cherish. I love you with all my heart always and forever. You have brought me so much happiness Nupur.
You've got me dreaming about you. Thoughts of you invade my mind every second of every day. I can't help it; you have become a part of my world and it scares me because I haven't depended on anyone in a long time. I would trust you with everything .... I do trust you with everything I am and I pray to God that you never do anything to make me regret it. Yes, now I can honestly say that I love you and will always love you because you got past my defenses and made it to that special place located at the core of my soul. You say that we were meant for each other and to be totally honest I was a little skeptical at first, but now I know that you love me.
Before we even met, my love, I should have told you this: there's this special love that I have deep within my heart. That love is only just for you. It is far greater than this planet, galaxy or universe. I wish I could show you how much you really mean to me. If I could let you feel how much I do really love you in a kiss or hug, you would only feel the surface of the love that I have for you. The only time when I can show you how much I do really love you is when we are married. For then you will see and taste how much I love you. You can hear the language of my love for you by listening to my heart; it will speak to you. You can taste the sweetest of it in a kiss and you can feel it in a hug. When you look deep into my eyes, you will see how great my love for you is. You will also know and see that it's no lie!
If I could describe the love that I have for you, I would try and use lyrics of love songs and even the sonnets of Shakespeare and it would be impossible, because the love that I love for you is real, unconditional, everlasting and indescribable. You've had my heart and love from the day we met and you will have it forever. As time goes by, my heart and love for you will keep on growing stronger, brighter and bigger. From this day forth you are all mine, as I am all yours. Although we have two different bodies, minds and souls, we have one and the same beautiful heart.
This is my unconditional love for you, from me to you. I love you, my Jaaaaaaan, with all my heart, body, mind and soul. I will never stop loving you. You are my life, my world and my everything. Distance may keep us apart, but you will always and forever be embedded deep within my heart.
My feelings for you … are my real confessions …
Here I am, heart and soul, confessing to the world how I feel about you. I would walk to the ends of the earth to meet you, and yet the funny thing is, looks as if I will have to do that since we haven't yet met. Funny how love works in people's lives. I sure never expected to neither meet nor find someone as amazing as you. You have touched my heart in so many ways and words couldn't even begin to explain to you the love I feel for you. Without further making it harder on the two of us to be together, I need to tell you that I love you and I am here waiting and when the time is right, will accept you as my life partner and spend forever and eternity in your arms. Dreaming of you always ... Nupur.
My feelings for you grow more and more every day, and my love for you grows deeper and more everlasting with every passing minute. You mean so much to me, I mean just seeing your smiling face or hearing you heart-melting voice just brightens up my worst days and makes them so much better. Or just having you give me a hug makes me all warm and tingly inside. I dream of you day in and day out; you're all that's ever on my mind. I hate leaving the house because I'm afraid I might miss one of your calls. I would walk a thousand miles to see you for one minute and have not one question about it. I am in love with you and have been in love with you!! I love you, Nupur! Every night when I close my eyes, you fill my heart with joy, and every morning when I open my eyes, you're the first thing on my mind, more than just a dream of what will probably never be. I'm in love with you - of that I'm sure, but I want to hold you, to kiss you, and adore you. If you'll be mine, you'll make me the happiest woman in this world, if you turn me away, I'll be dying. But either way, you'll always be the greatest love of all that I've ever had.
It's hard for me to tell you how I feel, because no one in my previous relationships has wanted that. And if they have, I've been afraid to tell them because I was afraid of being hurt. Please bare with me baby, I'm working on it. I will slowly be able to tell you how I feel or what I'm thinking. I read this quote today and it's made me think: "The best way to love is to love like you've never been hurt." That fits my situation one-hundred percent. I keep dwelling on the past and what everyone else has done to me. After reading that I realized I cannot be with you and be happy and continue to dwell on what other guys have done to me. I am with you. Not them. I need to concentrate on making you happy. And letting you make me happy. Up until this point you've been different than any other guy. I know that you wouldn't hurt me, at least intentionally. That's why you are different. I know you care for me and want to be with me. I am sorry I have doubted that. There has not been a moment in the last time where I have doubted any feelings for you.
I love you with all my heart, not just because today is our anniversary. No matter how tough this relationship gets or how hard it may seem to move forward, I will never stop loving you. You are my world and soul, the air that I breathe each day.
Sometimes I get angry with myself because I bring the relationship down more than I help it. Opening up to you is difficult but this is something I have to do. You are my best friend and no matter how difficult it may seem or how tough it may be to go on, I know I will, because I will have the best person in the whole world right by my side every step of the way.
You are my soul, my world, my everything. My heart skips a beat every time your name is mentioned or I see your face. You are the one I have been waiting for all of my life (not that I'm old!), and I finally stumbled across you. Now I must fight to keep you. I pray every night that you will some day be the one I wake up to in the morning. Without you I wouldn't be complete. So, please ... I am asking you to spend the rest of your life with me; all I can give you is love. I love you!
These intense feelings will never go away until I can have you in my arms, and that you realize that there is only one woman for you and it is me. Everyday, I hope that you will come into my life and tell me how you feel because what I feel for you exists only inside my heart. You are the only woman that can understand me, and you can only reach it; I give you the key, please unlock what you know can be the love you can only dream of. You are beautiful and I can't help but fall for you deeper every day. I can only hope that the day will arrive when you look deep into my eyes and you tell me what I have been waiting to feel that you love me the same way I'm thinking of you always… Nupur
You've walked into my life and totally turned it around. I was so depressed and torn up about what had happened to me in the last year or so; I was nearly ready to give up. You gave me the hope that I needed to keep going on. I am so grateful for having you in my life. I've been waiting on someone just like you to walk into my life, Nupur. Thank you for everything.
You have always been there for me through our ups and downs; you listen to my problems, and most of all you put up with me and all the crazy things I do. I love being with you and acting like fools and I just love everything about you. You are one of the best friends I have ever had, but last night when I always kept thinking about you and I couldn't stop thinking about you! I thought about all the good times we've had together and I thought about that day we hang out together and I realized that it wasn't the other people I want to be with, it's you. I love you, Nupur and want to be with you, forever and ever and ever ….
Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you. I really fear in my dreams too about losing you Nupur.
Now, I know we have not gotten to really know each other all that long and there are a little bit of an age difference between us, but I do really like you. You are a very special phenomena occurred in my life. There is so much about you I see that I know most boys don't see. They are all looking at you for your body. But Honey, I am telling you, that is not what I am doing. There is so much more to you than that. I have liked you for a very long time now but just never had the guts to say it to you. Well, that has all changed now. I am going all out and I am going to say it all. I really care a lot about you, and I would like to be a lot more then just friends. You mean so much to me. I mean, just seeing your cute little smile when I am having a bad day just makes the day seem not too dim. Or just to have you give me a hug makes me all warm and tingly inside. Just to see your smiling face brightens my darkest day. So, Jaan, what do you say? Would you like to give it a go Nupur?
I loved the way you looked at me and treated me in the time passed with you. A number of times, I couldn't talk, my mouth felt numb and I stuttered. I wished I had the courage to do so 'cause you're the most beautiful angel I have ever seen. Maybe God closed my eyes to other girls and you attracted my attention. I have been waiting for you for years now, I hope I'll be able to get your true love soon and you can forget the persons who have hurt you. I just don't have the courage to clear again and again and prove that I love you more than any other creature on the earth. A day will surely come when I will prove it Nupur.
Nupur, I love you. I know you'll find it hard to believe me if I tell you now how much you mean to me. I could hardly understand what I feel for you, knowing how to endure those long sleepless nights just thinking only of you. I've never been like this before. I just don't know how to pour out my feelings for you. I wanted to find the perfect words to make you realize how much I need you and love you, but words continue to elude me, what would they be? Something poetic? I'm sure it should be heartfelt and out of the ordinary. I'm afraid it's no use; every time I look at you, the words came out the same… I love you! Many friends of mine have come and gone but I always compared them to you and no one could ever quite compare. I have never known someone so beautiful and so giving and so honest. I love being with you. I love the memories that we have shared and you're the only one, Nupur, who will ever hold the key to my heart. I've wanted to tell you for so long, and I just couldn't find the right time or the right words. I love you... and that will never change.
When I talk to you, it makes my heart beat faster, and feels like some sweet feelings, unexplainable, not understandable. I feel your presence everywhere by me, your smell, and your laughs echo in my ears, your talks remind me that you really exist, and I want you bad enough like the roses would need their perfume, like wind needs its songs, like snow needs its whiteness, like a little child wants ice cream. I did not plan to love you, it just happened.
The world has many beauties, some like lilies, jasmine, irises, roses; some were just simple plain flowers, none of them made me feel attracted. It was your innocent smile, your sparkling eyes; it was you in whole who made my heart like falling out of its place. It was like lightening had struck me, it was like an angel had shown herself. It was you and your love what made me what I am today. I want to take you as a flower in my hand with which I'm charged with for responsibility to look ever after and to keep fresh. Next to you is like being next to paradise.
You don’t know how much I will appreciate having someone like you in my life and heart, someone to share my good times with and tell my troubles to, someone to care about? All my life, I prayed for someone like you, someone who will treat me like my mother, like my sister, if you can occupy a special space in my heart, I will always love you and my love for you will never die. Whatever may be the problem, I know that all I ever think of is loving you, for I know that this is the only way to express my feeling for you, I ponder and wonder over if I had not met you, but I did and say it thousands of times that I love you. When we love someone, we want to be loved also, I know love is long suffering but love is also sweeter than the honey in the honey comb. I love you and I won't hesitate to say it, even when every body says I hate you.
I really enjoyed the civilized and uncivilized moments I have spent with you. You've struck me as being mild-mannered and quiet as well as passionate and energetic. In fact, your elevated words and expressions added some spice to my life. I am totally captivated by your charm and good looks. If you could notice, I am not doing the work given to me wholeheartedly; and you're my total preoccupation, believe me. I wondered why I should ever get carried away by somebody I hadn't met before. Are there any particular things that I was longing for in you? But I have realized that you're exquisitely beautiful and unique. It seems that's the first time I'd ever seen such an ebony girl with a beautiful face and even more beautiful heart. Your beautiful long wavy dark hair that was tied back with a bow really intoxicated me. I must confess, I have fallen in love with you, my dear. I could only see myself gravitate to you. I really resonate with you, no doubt. It appears that our lives are like a 'plural subject' with a 'singular verb' under the rule of concord for LOVE Nupur.
Nupur, I don't even know how to tell this but … From the first time we talked to each other I knew you were special. And the first time we met, words cannot even explain. I was so nervous; until I saw you. It seemed so natural, like we've known one another for years. Truth is, it's been just under six weeks. I never knew I could feel this strongly about someone this soon, but you've proved me wrong. Every time I see the beach or a sunset I think about that night. I think about that day and night all the time. From the first time I saw you until the last kiss of the night. I'm so in love; I get this warm sensual feeling every time I think of you. When I sleep at night, all I can dream about is you. I wish I could hold you in my arms. I dream of the day when I could kiss you passionately on your soft sweet lips and listen to your heart beating because it's sweet music to my ears. All I can say is let me be the one you love; let me be the one whose love you need.
I want you here with me, if only for one night. I live day to day thinking of you. I picture in my mind everything about you, as if you were really here beside me. When I fall asleep I dream that you're next to me and I can feel your skin underneath my hand. I dream of you running your hands through my hair, down my back, and over every part of my body. I want to share my bed with you. My world is spinning; I can feel defeat, why can't I sleep? Why does my throat close whenever you speak? My heart breaks just to be around you. I take in the way you move, the way you talk, and the way you smell whenever you are around. My eyes directed down when your gaze falls upon me, that bashful smile - I want you so badly! This tension, it kills me. My unspoken attraction is enough to fill up volumes.
How can I get close to you? I'm too shy to talk to you; so at this moment it feels safer to watch you from afar with no rejections. You have taken up residence in my mind. I want so badly for you to tell me everything I want to hear but you won't. I want you to tell me that you want me, but you won't. Every time I think of you I can feel the butterflies fluttering inside me. You don't notice me or the way I look at you; maybe it's 'cause you only see me as a friend and nothing more, but when I look at you, nothing could turn my eyes away. At night I lay in bed and dream of you coming to my door grabbing me in your arms and kissing me. I dream of you and me lying side by side; running my hands down your chest, across your stomach ... feeling every inch of you with my fingers. I imagine kissing you all over your body. Whispering in your ear how badly I want you. I want you to hold me and I want to hear your voice. I imagine being wrapped in your arms and pressed against your chest. I would want you making me feel like part of you ... and every time we touch; we would feel like we were the only two in existence. As we lay there I would beg you to make love to me over and over.
But, as I sit here watching the sun set into the horizon, my heart sinks with it. My pain is my entire fault; when will I learn? You would never want me. I'm not perfect, beautiful, or anything important. I have to let the dream of you and me go, for I am a woman with an unrequited crush
Admiration
It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing gift of life to me Nupur.
To me, you're a rose that should be protected from thorns around lest they prick you. You're an angel that shouldn't be hurt. You are my sunrises and sunsets. You're also honey that should be covered against contaminants. By the grace of God, I'm ready to do whatever it takes to make you happy, I promise. I'm in earnest when I say I love you. I usually rhapsodize about your outstanding natural beauty among my friends. Your beauty hits me with a ' highly attractive force'. Undeniably, I love you and cherish you for you're an Angel personified. I'm longing to clasp you to my bosom very soon to soothe my ailing soul. You are a really great person that has allowed me to realize a lot of things in life. I appreciate and thank you dearly. I'm here and always will be. You've showed me true love, something no one has ever done. I just need your resolute “A Real Yes from your Heart" please, Nupur.
You are my knight in shinning armor. I wouldn't be where I am today, if it weren't for you reaching out and helping me. I will never forget you nor the things you have done for me. You are the "best" in my eyes and in my heart. I love every moment we share together and I love the small talks we share. I do hope one day, our friendship will grow into love. No matter whatever becomes of "us" I will always hold you in my heart. You are a life saver and a great friend.
The above-stated utterances and delightful contemplation of something worthy are inexpressible on my part because I was made to understand such sublime and noble qualities are inherent with you. I am very serious now in telling you that I can no longer endure such extreme anxiety and sleepless nights that I am experiencing right of this moment. Since I met you I felt I was living in a new and wonderful world, full of love. And the sun is brighter, the pastures became greener and everything I do was magnificent. You should inculcate and instill in your mind that "I cherish you so much". My love for you, like everything, deserves to be given much attention and care in order to grow and I require your support forever Nupur.
Yes, it is love that has taken root in my heart. But I have been so foolish to hug delusions to my heart and fight with my brain. I should not have persisted even when I saw the shadow of your winsome smile. Let me console myself that I have loved you in name only, a way that lingers only in imagination, in a mere dream, in fantasy, the creation of mind. Here I am still longing for your attention to be only mine as still every moment I have a fear of losing you. I love you… I die for you…You don’t know how much you mean to me, and how much I am thankful to you for coming into my life. You are something I never thought could exist for me. You are one of the best things that has happened in my life, and I don't regret being with you Nupur.
I love you so much and you just don't know it. Sometimes I get scared to show it. It feels like when you come around me my mouth becomes grid-locked and all the words I want to say just stop. My lips clutter because my love is so strong, and the words that I want to say just won't be said. Sometimes I want to open up to you and tell you how I feel - I guess I am too scared to open up and be real. I know you love me and you have hidden feelings inside too. It seems like it is easier for you to express yourself to me than it is from me to you. I love you, and know that I will always have hidden feelings for you which I won’t be able to show because of the responsibilities I have been stuck into. How I wish words could express the thoughts that I have towards you. If I should say I love you then the greater percent of my words are still unexpressed. But of course, I must say something ... my heart beats for you, and my heart longs for you Nupur.
Confessions
You once told me that I am a fool for falling for a girl like you! Well, if you feel that way - I accept, I am a fool, but the fact remains that I have fallen for you and I can't change that! At that very moment I felt that .. and understood that …I want you to know that I would much rather have you in my life and take a chance at losing you than not having you at all and wondering throughout, what it would have been like between us! What I'm always feeling for you is - would you take a chance with me Life will be heaven on earth. Sweetheart, will you be my girlfriend always.
Thanks for everything you gave me. I really felt so lightened inside with your concern for me that I melted. I could say nothing but to just stare at your natural beauty. I wish we could go out together one day and we could have our nights by the bay and that I could pour out my feelings to you. Thank you, you awaken me, deep inside. Even if you don't love me, I'll always wait for you and no matter what, you are in my heart... no matter what happens. I hope I'll be able to hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you. That's all I need from you. I love you and that's a promise to you Nupur.
It has been a long time since we are together and every moment adds to my desire for you. I can't believe how long I've been loving you and how long I contained my love for you. The look of your eyes and that smile that you gave me melted my heart away. Those smooth cheeks you have, oh, I wished I could've given you a kiss right away. As soon as I see your face, my knees go weak, my heart throbs hoping to feel you around me. Your Heart is perfection and to me it does not matter whether you like me or not , but my love for you will surely increase with every moment with you Nupur.
Since I met you I felt I was living in a new and wonderful world, full of love. And the sun is brighter, the pastures became greener and everything I do was magnificent. You should inculcate and instill in your mind that "I cherish you so much". Such love, like everything, deserves to be given much attention and care in order to grow more and more Nupur.
At first I was confused, didn't really know what I wanted, I didn't know if I would want to take a chance again and actually take you seriously. So, I decided to come close to you as a friend and find out who you truly were and what you were like. You seemed cool, nice and funny some things I really liked in a companion. So I took a chance and got with you. In the beginning, things didn't seem that well, I actually had my doubts about you. I wasn't sure you were actually taking me seriously. But, it was too late to look back; I had already fallen for you since the day I met you and I wasn't really looking forward to giving up too soon. I tried so hard to have you, and now I am not going to let you go so easily Nupur.
Truthfully and undoubtedly, I can fool anyone but I cannot fool myself. I would be a great liar if I uttered that I'm not in love with you. No matter what you think or say, all I can say is; I really love you with all my heart and I will not hesitate if you will give me just a little time to prove my feelings of endearment and to prove to you that I'm deserving of your feelings, from your heart. My dearly beloved, Nupur, you became so honorable in my eyes, like a precious gem, counted with extremely good intellectual reasoning makes me emotionally struck and speechless.
Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you. My heart has already found its way to you. I want you and no one else. You mean everything to me. I think we should try and make this work. You have to know you're the one, and only one I want. Not only are you perfect for me, you're the most perfect friend and I hope we can and will be more. I could never ask for better then what we have had. I am hoping you're feeling the same way because my heart is set on you, and only you Nupur.
As now we have been friends for such a long time now. Everyday spent with you is like a wonderland of new surprises. I have sat back, watched, and listened to you fall in love so many times. If you only knew that there is a true love waiting for you that will never die or grow tired and will always wait for you. You make me feel brand new; a hug from you is like being lifted into heaven. But these are words I'll never say, and so I will just continue to sit back and love you in silence. You don’t know but you are the reasons for my smiles. You are the reasons for my tears and my fears. You, my love, are the reason I wake up each day, and sleep each night. You are my reason for living my life. You, my love, are the only reason for my happiness. I want you; I need you; I love you! Life is incomplete and unbearable without you now. Life is yours do with as you may, but remember, my love, it's for you always, whether you accept it or not Nupur.
Well, time has passed and I have discovered new things and a new me. You have truly changed me. Still, in a way, I'm scared 'cause I am actually growing a true feeling inside my heart which I just cant explain, but I know it's there waiting for you to come and uncover it. I truly don't know what your feelings are but I don't want to force you in telling me what you don't feel towards me. I would want to receive love and trust from you when you truly mean it. All I ask from you is to show me you care and not hide anything, to also have trust in me the way I do in you. Every time I think about you, it gives me more and more strength with which to carry on my life. It makes me happy to be alive knowing that you have come into my life and all I know is that I want to be with you Nupur.
After all that's happened to me in the past years, I swore to God, that I would never settle again and that I would never give my heart and my life completely to another. With great content and zero disparity, I take it back. You have become a beacon to me. Whenever I feel as though I've drifted too far into the disparity that clouds my life, I can look up to find you guiding me to safety. I am ready to stay any place regardless of the conditions provided you are with me because you are my world my affection for you grows each and everyday. I am totally addicted to you, and you're the only drug that kept me from dying. When I looked into those eyes of yours, I saw the real me, a person that lives for a goal and a purpose. I pray hard each day, just to hope that you and I can be in a relationship that is more than just friends someday. For now, I've declared my love for you and I will be right here waiting for you always Nupur.
That night that our paths crossed was as if a magnetic force joined us. It seemed as if I forgot to wake up that morning and face true reality. As our eyes connected it seemed too fresh and real to be a dream. The fire, the strength, the longing to be loved, words were not needed as we stared and watched as the world closed in and stopped at these two souls connected like the center point of an eye. I remember when we first spoke, as if we have known one another for years. Our conversations went on as if the seasons were changing with no disconnection of the line. Never could I have asked the Lord for anything more assuring or hypnotizing than the soothing tone of your voice and the words lingering off them. You made my days sunny even though the nights rained on endlessly. We completed one another; you thought that no good woman existed and then you met me. How I long for you to know that the feeling is mutual, that I have never met a man that can read though me and explore my inner core. Please keep in mind that I will not take your heart that I hold, for granted. I will replace it with mine, so you know I wouldn't be able to breathe without it. You are a splendid jewel she released and I grasped. Never would I let a soul take you away or bring harm near you. The day I looked into the blue recesses of your soul - correction: my soul, I knew no force could ruin the joining of two souls.
Soul mates do exist and now I have learned that there is beauty behind all imperfections. It took us both years of hurt and pain and it has paid off. It's true when they say, "God makes you meet a few wrong people, before you meet the right one, so you will be able to appreciate and understand their worth."
Thank you, Nupur, for all that you have given me and that you continue too…..
Please reply my Questions as my love will never end …
I wish I could read your beautiful mind and see what your love for me is. I love you with all my heart and yet I have no idea if you feel the same way. My heart is ready to split in two because I need you and yet I don't know if you need me. Please, from the bottom of my heart to the height of my will, I confess my everlasting love for you and hope you will respond likewise.
I know we haven't been dating that long, not officially, but I want you to know that I love you from the bottom of my heart. From the moment I first met you, I knew that I wanted you in my life, whether as a friend of something a little more. Baby, I prayed for a long time to find someone like you. Someone willing to fight for me, someone to make me smile and someone who I know truly loves me. You're in my thoughts, my dreams, and every breath I take. I know truly that this is love. I feel like I can tell you anything. I may not always want to, but you know things about me that even my best friend doesn't know. You're always there to pick me up when I fall, and to dry my tears. You make my heart pound so fast and I can't even catch my breath. You give me goose bumps all over my body and you're all I think about. I've never had a love like this before and I've never felt this way. I want to keep you forever. Thank you, for everything Nupur.
I just had to let you know that these last weeks without so much as talking to you has given me a lot of time to think about how I feel about you. I have decided that I am definitely, hopelessly in love with you. What made me realize this is not so much that I think about you all the time, though I do. It was how I think about you. Not only do I think about how much I love you, but why, how much, and mostly do I deserve to be loved by you. It just feels so lucky to finally be able to love you like I have been wanting to for so long. Your sweet lips leave me speechless with each perfect kiss. What have I done to deserve this? And that is another thing I was thinking - It is a little too strange, I think, that we are so right for each other. Some might want to argue this, but I have a few examples for those poor misguided souls. Your smile is like a world-famous painting. When we kiss, it is like two lost puzzle pieces finally discovered after a search to make the puzzle complete. When we hold each other, time seems to stand still. When I look into your eyes I see the love in your heart reflecting on my own. All of this tells me one thing ... our love is real Nupur.
I just hope you understand the depth of my every word. You know I've tried every other thing to tell you how I feel about you except the phrase: "I love you." I'm doing this to avoid you being embarrassed. I can say I'm not 100% sure you feel the same way as I do, but I know that you care for me and love me too somewhere in your heart. Maybe the past time and my ever growing feelings for you between us now is making things more difficult. However, I believe, my love, that if by coincidence you read this confession, you know I am saying this to you. I love you and always will. I can't help but tell you this whether you love me or not I will always love you till the last moment of my life and if you also love me the same I will be the luckiest guy on the world who has won your love Nupur.
But... where do I begin and where do I end? I've had you in million of my thoughts. I tell you a million times a day, each day, that I love you and that you mean the world to me. Although you reciprocate these feelings, I'm sure you have no real understanding on the magnitude of exactly what they mean to me. No one in this world knows the feeling that I get when I see you. They have no idea about what you get my body to do when I hear your name or hear that sweet soft voice of yours. Nobody has ever made me feel like the way you make me feel and that is such a crazy feeling. It feels like I just want to grab you and be in your arms forever and forever and never let go. I want to kiss your lips and never end - just keep going. You are my very best friend, my lover, my protector, my teacher and my absolute soul mate. I give my life to you: mind, body and soul. I will you to hold me for the rest of my life as you do each and every day and night. I belong to you now....Nupur. My beautiful love, come to me and make me the happiest man in the world! If you're asking me if I love you this much, my beautiful gal, I do! Marry me, Beautiful ... come spend eternity with me Nupur??
As I sit and think about you and what you and I have been though, I see that I can only love you more and more every day. You're my inspiration each and every day. You are what keeps me going when I just want to give up. You are my meaning for life and love. I love the way that you love me, in each and every touch and kiss. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have you. You're my life's dream come true. My wish for you is that you could feel all the passion and love that I carry around in my heart and soul for you. You have won my love and soul. You have gotten it all, even my heart. You make me feel like I am in heaven in the arms of an Angel. You and I have an amazing relationship, but as it goes on I wonder which is it ... friends or lovers? That is our uncertainty. We've been friends for a while and now the friendship isn't that anymore for me. I have fallen in love with you and don't know how much you love me... Just tell you that I am your soul mate masquerading as your best friend Nupur.
I just want you to know that these are my feelings and are more eloquent than words. I am a little bit confused on how and what to do just to eradicate from my vivid mind your charming and beautiful face. The more time I spend with you the more I like everything about you and the more I want to find out all about you - how you think, how you feel, what your dreams are and everything nice from you. If I could only do something just to persuade you. I cannot study well, and everything I wish to do was left undone because of this unexplainable emotion. I promised myself before, not to see you anymore or talk to you - just to forget you, but these promises never materialize. My admiration was still bubbling within me these past lonely days without you Nupur.
Yes, I keep thinking about the future, about life, and what I want out of it. I keep thinking about us and what this relationship means to me. I keep thinking about these things and I realize they go hand in hand. This relationship is my future; it's what I want out of life. I want to grow old with you. I want to experience this crazy love forever and ever, and I really think I'm going to get to. I want us to walk through new houses picking the one that would be just right for us. I want to see you walk around our house in a big t-shirt with your hair down and catch me staring at how gorgeous you are. I want you to pull the covers off me at night and then I have to get even closer, if it's possible, to you to keep warm. I want to see you laugh like crazy at me when I do stupid stuff. I want to rub lotion all over your body because you laid out in the sun too long. I want to have a child with you and go through the experiences of parenthood with you. I want to see you and me chasing our little kid around the house, all three of us laughing our heads off and having fun. I want to hold you when you cry and smile with you when you smile. I want to fall asleep every night with you in my arms. I want you to fall asleep on my chest listening to the beat of my heart and know it beats for you I want you to be the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I see when I go to sleep. I want to see your bad morning hair; I think it will be so cute. I want to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set, and I want all the people who pass us to envy the love that we obviously have for each other.
I want to see you walk down that isle and I want to take your hand for the rest of my life. I want to spend all night, and maybe the next day, making love to you with an undying passion (sorry to be so blunt). I want to be thirty years old and still make out with you like a little schoolboy. I want to cook a meal with you and us totally ruin it and end up doing take out. I want to sit there talking to you for hours about nothing at all but in the same time everything or maybe we won't talk at all and just grin at each other realizing how lucky we are. I want you to get mad at me for doing something stupid, and I want you to bust out laughing when you try to yell at me. I want to lay with you in front of a fireplace and keep the heat going long after the fire goes out. I want to take trips with you to places we've never been and experience them together. I want us to go skinny-dipping in a hotel pool and get caught and streak back to our hotel room waking everyone up because we're laughing so hard. I want us to go and pick out the hot tub we want with the biggest grins on our faces the whole time. I want the sales rep to get embarrassed when we sit in them and make sure we have enough room to do the things we want to do. I want to hold your hand and let you scream at me while you bring our child into this world. I want our friends to come over and get totally jealous because they don't share a love like we do. I want to be walking into a store with you and trip and fall on my face and turn around to see you rolling on the ground laughing at me. I want us to run outside in the rain and act like total kids getting completely soaked, and when we come back in stripping down to nothing as we stumble into the bedroom, or the kitchen counter, or the balcony, or the dining room table, or an office desk, or the shower, which ever one we feel like at the time.
I want it to take your breath away every time I say, "I love you" because you know it's coming from the heart. I want us to be sitting there and watching our child take their first steps from my arms into yours. I want us to sit down with a box of strawberries, a bottle of chocolate syrup, and a thing of mint chocolate ice cream; well, I'll let your imagination finish that one. I want to love you and be with you for at least forever if not a little longer. I couldn't really express in words what I'm feeling right now so I decided to share with you SOME of the images and thoughts that have been running through my head. I just want you to know that I had never found someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with until I met you. I really am crazy about you, everything about you.
You are the most incredible woman I have ever met. You're so outgoing and friendly, and you always have so much to say. You're so sweet and your heart is so big. I have never met anyone with a heart like yours, and I love you for it. You're the type of girl that when you walk into a room, all eyes fall on you and everyone lights up; you're the type of girl that men dream of when they close their eyes at night; you're the type of girl, guys can't wait to bring home to mom, and you're the type of girl, who I myself dream of spending the rest of my life with. I hope someday I gain enough courage to tell you the way I feel to your face, because losing you to someone else would crush me. I love you, always and forever, Nupur.
I know that things could never be the same again but that's what life is about... taking risks! I could make you so happy. There's more to life than just sitting around waiting for something to happen; life will then just pass us by. My heart is hungry for your love, but my mind is aware of what it cannot have. I know we belong to different worlds so then why did you come and change everything around in my life? I thought I didn't want to love again, I thought I wouldn't be able to since my heart has hurt so much. To even say I do - it's a scary thought, but you came along and I became fearless of it.
It's hard to explain myself or to put it together in one, the only easy thing to think of, is loving you. For just one look into your eyes makes everything in the world and in my life seem to disappear. You make me want to see the sunrise every day, to know it's another day where I can maybe have you by my side. I know faith can make this work someday if I just keep up my hope, 'til then I'll think of you just like now; your touch will forever caress me with tenderness, and your kisses will keep the flame in my heart alive in hope that one day you and I will be together...
I will keep loving you as long as the sun keeps shining, the stars keep brightening the sky, the winds keep blowing, the snow keeps falling, and the flowers keep smiling. I humbly request you, Nupur, be mine. Loving you forever.... Whenever you will fight with me I will be on my knees begging for love, not to a stranger but to one I know .. I've been in love and know its fun. Each moment I will hope and pray that you'll be mine forever more. I know it's hard to trust a man - giving your heart, body and soul, but know it's me that's on my knees swallowing my pride, begging you, please ... once again I will surely make you mine.
Lastly I promise to do whatever you want ..whenever you want , wherever you want …I will do whatever I can for you .. forever and ever and ever and ever ….
With loads of love ... Karan
I am writing this love letter to confess that I am in total, unbearable and extreme love with you, and I don't know what I would do without you. My heart is yours to keep. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I never want to let go. Every moment we share together I could never forget, and I am simply hanging by that moment, waiting until the next time I can see you and be held close in your arms. I love you… I really love u you a lots Nupur.
Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. The moment you had entered my life is really a turning milestone Nupur.
Most people spend their entire lives searching for a perfection that almost never exists. Most people will spend their days looking at each person they encountered with question as to whether or not they have found a reason, a season or a lifetime. I am sure that I also was sent down to earth for a mission, a mission to find someone that will complete me. The very moment I met you, I had finally found the perfection that I had been seeking for all my life. At that moment, I didn't believe my eyes as the girl that I thought only existed in fairytale now stood facing me. Staring at my destiny each day, I saw your gentle smile, the smile that gave me the strength to make the impossible possible. With you, angry ‘Darling’, I have found an eternity. You... are on the world ... it’s the place where I am meant to be. You are what my entire life has led up to Nupur.
I have spent my life waiting ... not living, nor loving, but waiting. Waiting for the one that would inspire me to be all I can be, to live up to every expectation, to reach every goal, to know that I may fail sometime but I will never be alone or waiting again. You brought to my cold empty heart the reason to live and to love with a passion only you could bring. Your words of acceptance and love will surely soothe the burns in my empty heart and I will be at peace with myself and the world around me. I know that one day I will come to you never to wait anymore. I love you with every ounce of my being ... "Yours is the first name I call and the last name I will ever whisper Nupur."
I have lived for a long time, responsible for and dependent upon no one, answering to no one and committed to no one except myself. During this period of my life, I considered the world mine for the taking and truly believed that I was living life to the fullest. Then, you came into the picture, and all of a sudden, I realized that I was deceiving myself.
I find that my life is not all that I thought it was. In fact, it is terribly lacking in many things, the foremost being love. Now, through some great fortune, I have found that love and along with it, the one person who can make my life truly complete. You are that person, and I have somehow fallen in love with you. To be honest, I never thought I would ever utter those words, but now, they come forth effortlessly and with great sincerity. I'll be forever be grateful to you for showing me just how shallow my life was. At last, I have a chance to give it depth and purpose. Yes I have decided I will always remain totally yours in thought and spirit. You make it pretty obvious that you like me. I really like you. I want to know if you like me as much. If you do, please tell me. I wish that you would be mine and that I would be yours. If you think this is love, please tell me. I want you to be mine so badly, Nupur.
Every time I'm around you, you make my face melt and my mind turn into Jell-O. My heart beats faster than a hummingbird's. I love you more than chocolate. You've got the best smile in the world, and I love you so much! I hear your voice when someone talks to me. You're the last thing on my mind at night. You fill every dream I have. You're the very first thing I think of when I wake up ... and you'll never know it. I miss you when you're gone. I miss you when you're sitting so close to me and I can't touch you. I miss you when you smile that smile at me. I miss not having you in my life, even when everyday you are. I want you like you'll never know. I want your entire heart and soul. I see your face, I see your heart. I want your love, I NEED your love, but I won't tell you because I can't. I cannot tell you how I feel, because I know you're just my friend. I know that you're happy with that. I know you're not looking for someone to love. I know, I know, I know! But, I don't understand; I don't understand why it has to hurt so very much when you laugh, when you get so close. I don't get that. I don't know how to move on, I don't know how to let myself live without you. I just don't know!
I just want a day when it's just you and me. I just want a day when my heart can sing true. I pray to God every day that you'll tell me that you want me the same way I want you. I beg every day to an unseen force that you will one day be mine. I'm moving away, but I'm leaving my heart with you. Forever and for always, it will belong to you. Don't tell me if you don't love me, but please for the love of God, please tell me if you feel the same way. If you don't love me, please stop looking at me with those eyes, please stop touching my arm, please stop - just stop, because my heart loves you. My heart NEEDS you, but without you, there really is no point. So please, for my sanity, love me, or leave me. Stop teasing me like this. Forever and a day,
I know that there is probably very little I can say to change your mind either way; I am not totally discounting the possibility that the way I feel about you could be reciprocated, but as I have very little luck in this area in the past my hopes are fairly small. I wish I could tell you how every time you don't turn up for work I fear that I will never see you again or that you will get into trouble with people; I just want to protect you so much. I see you sometimes and you look down even though you may pretend otherwise. I wish you would open up to me and let me in to your life. I know it wouldn't be easy but I still believe that I could be good for you, if only you could return my feelings. I know I may not be the best looking man, you know, and I don't have much to offer financially, all I could offer you is my heart and soul. I fear that this will not turn out the way I hope but I pray that it does. As I said before, you may never know the true extent of my feelings although I would imagine you have some suspicions. This may be a crush or infatuation but I swear to you that it does not feel like it, as I have had crushes before but never really felt the kinds of emotions I do for you.
I never thought I could really love someone as much as I love you. We started out as a friends just talking, but over the last couple of months I've truly fallen for you head over heels. You're not one to admit how you feel but I know somewhere in your heart you have feelings for me too because I know you would not have just wasted your time for nothing. You know I care. You're the only person who could ever put this big of a smile on my face. I don't want you to leave me anytime soon ... I told you I'd wait three and a half years for you if you get sent away and that is the truth. You said if that ever happened to me you would wait for me too, I hope it wasn't a lie. I will always love you Nupur. I can not even see myself with any other guy but you - it's true; I'm in love with you.
Our road to friendship has been a little less then traditional but for some reason it worked for us. I know you will always be there for me and that's one of the reasons I think I may be falling in love with you. I know you do not have time for a relationship right now and that you may even be scared to commit to me, but I am patient. I will be by your side regardless of my status with you. I have never felt so connected to a person in my life; I love talking to you or just being in your presence. I also realize that it is hard to tell somebody you care about that you do not love them as they love you. Please don't ever be afraid to be honest with me, because I will always be your friend. Mainly I wanted you to know I will wait for you. I don't need fancy gifts or 100% of your time, all I need is to know you care, and you do that already. I love your hugs and comforting words and I want to say thank you for everything. I have loved you as my friend for some time and I would cherish the chance to love you even more.
You are like a dream I never thought would ever come true for me. When I hear your voice I start to smile with glee. My eyes shine with glee when I know you are thinking of me. When you sing to me, the song you wrote for me makes feel as if we are meant to be. You are so special to me; I pray that we will finally know if we are meant to be with one another. I haven't ever talked to anyone so like you before. You make me feel special like never before. So far, the things that you are doing shows me that you are such a caring person who would love me forever till the end of time. I just want to be loved and have someone to love back the way I've always wanted. I want to find my best friend, my soul mate, my lover and my Life partner. I feel as if you may just be the one I am looking for and have been searching for all my life. These are the feelings I am having for you as of this moment.
I love your eyes, your smile, your hair, your body, and your voice, damn that voice, it drives me off the wall. When I hear your voice my heart skips a beat. Yessss, Nupur, I am crazy about you. Every time I see you, I think I'm out of control. I do not know why I am feeling this way, but it's like nothing I've ever experienced before. I'd like to touch your face to see if it's real. How could I not notice until now that your face could launch a thousand ships? I'd like you to know that I love you so much, more than I love myself. So even if we are not meant to be together I just want to stay with you, 'til the moment I render forever, and ever. 'Cause maybe you're going to be the one that's saved me, after all you're my wonder wall.
You are the only one who can make me happy with your love and affection. Since I have met you, I have noticed that life is worth living. I live mine for you. You have stolen me from me. Alone I can be lost. So, do not let the distance between us become larger. Each day is more wonderful that the previous one as I know that I will see you. Although I know that you will ignore me, as usual, I still want to see you. The further you will go from me, the more I will love you. A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes in the promise of love, no matter how long the time and how far the distance. There are so many ways I want to tell you that I really love you, my sweetheart. My feelings for you are true and pure ... like a virgin. I have tried lots of times to confess but you are always acting deaf to what I say. Remember one thing ... I love you and I will always love you. Loving you is something I love to do... Nupur.
You met me and … the world changed…
When I first met you I was struck by your simplicity and by your sweetness of speech and manner that it became difficult for me to shut you out of my mind. Your bewitching smile captivated my heart, and the more I tried to forget you the more I began to think of you, until it dawned upon me that I have fallen in love with you. Though you have seen me so many times and I've a gotten the chance to know you in our swimming class, I could say that you've captured my heart. I know that this is not right for me to tell you all these things, but I can't stop it. After we parted, I had wonderful memories, which enraptured my heart as I walked along the lonely path that led to my home. Thanks for filling the emptiness in my heart. You're an angel in disguise that came down from the heavens to save me from feeling blue.
You walked into my life a stranger a mere 6 months ago and my life hasn't been the same since. You are TRULY my gift from a higher power. LOVE is such a miniscule word for what we share. You are SO amazing. You appeared when I was at such a low point in my existence. A time when I thought that the physical and emotional pain brought on by another would never end and would wear away at every fiber of my being until it consumed me and I was no more. During the moments I tried to turn away for fear of the unknown, you planted your heels and looked deep in my soul and stayed. I fear whether you compromised your life and your goals to help me survive... and I am eternally indebted to you. Without you... I would not be what I am today Nupur.
When I was a little boy, I dreamt of that one person that I would share my dreams, happiness and energy with ... I could not see her face but she was there. I always felt like she was out there, I just needed to feel her. I visualized the bond we would have and the courage she would give me to endure life's obstacles. All these years I was with others, and feeling my way through life, learning lessons that later on would prepare me to become the person that I am now. I have felt alone and sad. Then one day my eyes opened and I became that little boy again ... realizing that she is here now. Here in my world was the woman that I had dreamt of and I had hoped would not miss our meeting in life ... that woman is you Nupur.
I remember the day we met. You stole my heart, and made it skip twice. You have been the highlight of my life. When I sleep, I dream of you, when I work, we work together, when your heart beats, mine beats with yours. We have been friends for some time now; not one day has gone by without me thinking of you. I think of you, and the biggest smile comes across my face, I feel warm all over and my heart still skips a beat for you whether we're on the phone or just being at the same place. Sweetheart, just looking into your eyes still makes me feel like the first day we met. I have the same dream we both want, and that's to fall in love with our best friend. I fell for you so long ago. Do you feel the same way about me Nupur?
When you finally asked me out. When you first said, "I love you," to me my heart dropped because it felt so good inside to finally hear those words I have been longing to hear. We have been friends longer than we have been boyfriend and girlfriend. I'm just so in love with you. I promise you this: I will never cheat, lie or do anything to hurt you. You make me feel so good inside and so happy that I still can't believe it. It's so amazing being with you because you're such an amazing person. I hope that we go out for a long time. I don't know what the future holds - that's something only God knows. I love you, Nupur, and hopefully always will.
Let me see your face at least once a day. Don't take this pleasure away from me. Even I get confused when you pass by me and give me a glance! However, I wait the whole day just to see you. You are the view which quenches the thirst of my eyes. My respect for you in my heart is growing each day and now it's like big mountain, and it's becoming difficult to face you. I am making no expectations from you because I am not waiting for anything in return, all I want is just let me see your face at least once a day! It is becoming difficult for me and many times I don't want to see you because this inspires me a lot and makes me more attracted towards you, and I don't want such feelings to grow anymore, but in the end I'd like to say let me see your face at least once a day Nupur.
My thoughts are prompted by the noblest of impulses so don't misunderstand the noble mission I am conveying. When I met you, as if by a God-sent blessing, I thought that I saw a light of soft understanding. What had come over me? I was not like this before. Yes before I met you, I lived a peaceful life. I could go and return home and feel no trouble. But now, I am disturbed mind and soul just researching every moment about you in my thoughts and wishes. It cannot be my imagination or is it that love has struck too deeply and that I must pay sacrifice for Every night when I close my eyes, you fill my heart with joy, and every morning when I open my eyes, you're the first thing on my mind, more than just a dream of what will probably never be. I'm in love with you - of that I'm sure, but I want to hold you, to kiss you, and adore you. If you'll be mine, you'll make me the happiest woman in this world, if you turn me away, I'll be dying. But either way, you'll always be the greatest love of all that I've ever had.
what is asked of me? I have tried to restrain myself. I have tried to stifle and control my longings knowing that I am not even fit to grace your side. But my heart's orders are imperative. Who am I to battle the call of fate? I confess that when I saw you, I had marked myself for your victim Nupur.
I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved. Then you came along... I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past. At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being that we were both behind the screen. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself - damn it - I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore! I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; that you couldn't REALLY be feeling the same as I was... I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you Nupur.
Then the time came when you were expressing how you were beginning to feel which I tried not to believe, because I was scared of being disappointed, but the magnetism that I was feeling was so strong that I could no longer fight it. Our chats became an everyday thing and the feelings just would not go away no matter how hard i tried. I just could not resist the temptation of meeting you while I was not near you... all along I could not believe that you were for real, but when we finally first met I knew then there was no way I could stop from loving you. I thought that if we met, these feelings would just go away, but they didn't. I tried so hard to convince myself that there is no such thing as true love... but you have made me believe differently. We have been together for nearly 10 months now and I still love you and even more so now. You have become a part of me that I will always cherish. I love you with all my heart always and forever. You have brought me so much happiness Nupur.
You've got me dreaming about you. Thoughts of you invade my mind every second of every day. I can't help it; you have become a part of my world and it scares me because I haven't depended on anyone in a long time. I would trust you with everything .... I do trust you with everything I am and I pray to God that you never do anything to make me regret it. Yes, now I can honestly say that I love you and will always love you because you got past my defenses and made it to that special place located at the core of my soul. You say that we were meant for each other and to be totally honest I was a little skeptical at first, but now I know that you love me.
Before we even met, my love, I should have told you this: there's this special love that I have deep within my heart. That love is only just for you. It is far greater than this planet, galaxy or universe. I wish I could show you how much you really mean to me. If I could let you feel how much I do really love you in a kiss or hug, you would only feel the surface of the love that I have for you. The only time when I can show you how much I do really love you is when we are married. For then you will see and taste how much I love you. You can hear the language of my love for you by listening to my heart; it will speak to you. You can taste the sweetest of it in a kiss and you can feel it in a hug. When you look deep into my eyes, you will see how great my love for you is. You will also know and see that it's no lie!
If I could describe the love that I have for you, I would try and use lyrics of love songs and even the sonnets of Shakespeare and it would be impossible, because the love that I love for you is real, unconditional, everlasting and indescribable. You've had my heart and love from the day we met and you will have it forever. As time goes by, my heart and love for you will keep on growing stronger, brighter and bigger. From this day forth you are all mine, as I am all yours. Although we have two different bodies, minds and souls, we have one and the same beautiful heart.
This is my unconditional love for you, from me to you. I love you, my Jaaaaaaan, with all my heart, body, mind and soul. I will never stop loving you. You are my life, my world and my everything. Distance may keep us apart, but you will always and forever be embedded deep within my heart.
My feelings for you … are my real confessions …
Here I am, heart and soul, confessing to the world how I feel about you. I would walk to the ends of the earth to meet you, and yet the funny thing is, looks as if I will have to do that since we haven't yet met. Funny how love works in people's lives. I sure never expected to neither meet nor find someone as amazing as you. You have touched my heart in so many ways and words couldn't even begin to explain to you the love I feel for you. Without further making it harder on the two of us to be together, I need to tell you that I love you and I am here waiting and when the time is right, will accept you as my life partner and spend forever and eternity in your arms. Dreaming of you always ... Nupur.
My feelings for you grow more and more every day, and my love for you grows deeper and more everlasting with every passing minute. You mean so much to me, I mean just seeing your smiling face or hearing you heart-melting voice just brightens up my worst days and makes them so much better. Or just having you give me a hug makes me all warm and tingly inside. I dream of you day in and day out; you're all that's ever on my mind. I hate leaving the house because I'm afraid I might miss one of your calls. I would walk a thousand miles to see you for one minute and have not one question about it. I am in love with you and have been in love with you!! I love you, Nupur! Every night when I close my eyes, you fill my heart with joy, and every morning when I open my eyes, you're the first thing on my mind, more than just a dream of what will probably never be. I'm in love with you - of that I'm sure, but I want to hold you, to kiss you, and adore you. If you'll be mine, you'll make me the happiest woman in this world, if you turn me away, I'll be dying. But either way, you'll always be the greatest love of all that I've ever had.
It's hard for me to tell you how I feel, because no one in my previous relationships has wanted that. And if they have, I've been afraid to tell them because I was afraid of being hurt. Please bare with me baby, I'm working on it. I will slowly be able to tell you how I feel or what I'm thinking. I read this quote today and it's made me think: "The best way to love is to love like you've never been hurt." That fits my situation one-hundred percent. I keep dwelling on the past and what everyone else has done to me. After reading that I realized I cannot be with you and be happy and continue to dwell on what other guys have done to me. I am with you. Not them. I need to concentrate on making you happy. And letting you make me happy. Up until this point you've been different than any other guy. I know that you wouldn't hurt me, at least intentionally. That's why you are different. I know you care for me and want to be with me. I am sorry I have doubted that. There has not been a moment in the last time where I have doubted any feelings for you.
I love you with all my heart, not just because today is our anniversary. No matter how tough this relationship gets or how hard it may seem to move forward, I will never stop loving you. You are my world and soul, the air that I breathe each day.
Sometimes I get angry with myself because I bring the relationship down more than I help it. Opening up to you is difficult but this is something I have to do. You are my best friend and no matter how difficult it may seem or how tough it may be to go on, I know I will, because I will have the best person in the whole world right by my side every step of the way.
You are my soul, my world, my everything. My heart skips a beat every time your name is mentioned or I see your face. You are the one I have been waiting for all of my life (not that I'm old!), and I finally stumbled across you. Now I must fight to keep you. I pray every night that you will some day be the one I wake up to in the morning. Without you I wouldn't be complete. So, please ... I am asking you to spend the rest of your life with me; all I can give you is love. I love you!
These intense feelings will never go away until I can have you in my arms, and that you realize that there is only one woman for you and it is me. Everyday, I hope that you will come into my life and tell me how you feel because what I feel for you exists only inside my heart. You are the only woman that can understand me, and you can only reach it; I give you the key, please unlock what you know can be the love you can only dream of. You are beautiful and I can't help but fall for you deeper every day. I can only hope that the day will arrive when you look deep into my eyes and you tell me what I have been waiting to feel that you love me the same way I'm thinking of you always… Nupur
You've walked into my life and totally turned it around. I was so depressed and torn up about what had happened to me in the last year or so; I was nearly ready to give up. You gave me the hope that I needed to keep going on. I am so grateful for having you in my life. I've been waiting on someone just like you to walk into my life, Nupur. Thank you for everything.
You have always been there for me through our ups and downs; you listen to my problems, and most of all you put up with me and all the crazy things I do. I love being with you and acting like fools and I just love everything about you. You are one of the best friends I have ever had, but last night when I always kept thinking about you and I couldn't stop thinking about you! I thought about all the good times we've had together and I thought about that day we hang out together and I realized that it wasn't the other people I want to be with, it's you. I love you, Nupur and want to be with you, forever and ever and ever ….
Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you. I really fear in my dreams too about losing you Nupur.
Now, I know we have not gotten to really know each other all that long and there are a little bit of an age difference between us, but I do really like you. You are a very special phenomena occurred in my life. There is so much about you I see that I know most boys don't see. They are all looking at you for your body. But Honey, I am telling you, that is not what I am doing. There is so much more to you than that. I have liked you for a very long time now but just never had the guts to say it to you. Well, that has all changed now. I am going all out and I am going to say it all. I really care a lot about you, and I would like to be a lot more then just friends. You mean so much to me. I mean, just seeing your cute little smile when I am having a bad day just makes the day seem not too dim. Or just to have you give me a hug makes me all warm and tingly inside. Just to see your smiling face brightens my darkest day. So, Jaan, what do you say? Would you like to give it a go Nupur?
I loved the way you looked at me and treated me in the time passed with you. A number of times, I couldn't talk, my mouth felt numb and I stuttered. I wished I had the courage to do so 'cause you're the most beautiful angel I have ever seen. Maybe God closed my eyes to other girls and you attracted my attention. I have been waiting for you for years now, I hope I'll be able to get your true love soon and you can forget the persons who have hurt you. I just don't have the courage to clear again and again and prove that I love you more than any other creature on the earth. A day will surely come when I will prove it Nupur.
Nupur, I love you. I know you'll find it hard to believe me if I tell you now how much you mean to me. I could hardly understand what I feel for you, knowing how to endure those long sleepless nights just thinking only of you. I've never been like this before. I just don't know how to pour out my feelings for you. I wanted to find the perfect words to make you realize how much I need you and love you, but words continue to elude me, what would they be? Something poetic? I'm sure it should be heartfelt and out of the ordinary. I'm afraid it's no use; every time I look at you, the words came out the same… I love you! Many friends of mine have come and gone but I always compared them to you and no one could ever quite compare. I have never known someone so beautiful and so giving and so honest. I love being with you. I love the memories that we have shared and you're the only one, Nupur, who will ever hold the key to my heart. I've wanted to tell you for so long, and I just couldn't find the right time or the right words. I love you... and that will never change.
When I talk to you, it makes my heart beat faster, and feels like some sweet feelings, unexplainable, not understandable. I feel your presence everywhere by me, your smell, and your laughs echo in my ears, your talks remind me that you really exist, and I want you bad enough like the roses would need their perfume, like wind needs its songs, like snow needs its whiteness, like a little child wants ice cream. I did not plan to love you, it just happened.
The world has many beauties, some like lilies, jasmine, irises, roses; some were just simple plain flowers, none of them made me feel attracted. It was your innocent smile, your sparkling eyes; it was you in whole who made my heart like falling out of its place. It was like lightening had struck me, it was like an angel had shown herself. It was you and your love what made me what I am today. I want to take you as a flower in my hand with which I'm charged with for responsibility to look ever after and to keep fresh. Next to you is like being next to paradise.
You don’t know how much I will appreciate having someone like you in my life and heart, someone to share my good times with and tell my troubles to, someone to care about? All my life, I prayed for someone like you, someone who will treat me like my mother, like my sister, if you can occupy a special space in my heart, I will always love you and my love for you will never die. Whatever may be the problem, I know that all I ever think of is loving you, for I know that this is the only way to express my feeling for you, I ponder and wonder over if I had not met you, but I did and say it thousands of times that I love you. When we love someone, we want to be loved also, I know love is long suffering but love is also sweeter than the honey in the honey comb. I love you and I won't hesitate to say it, even when every body says I hate you.
I really enjoyed the civilized and uncivilized moments I have spent with you. You've struck me as being mild-mannered and quiet as well as passionate and energetic. In fact, your elevated words and expressions added some spice to my life. I am totally captivated by your charm and good looks. If you could notice, I am not doing the work given to me wholeheartedly; and you're my total preoccupation, believe me. I wondered why I should ever get carried away by somebody I hadn't met before. Are there any particular things that I was longing for in you? But I have realized that you're exquisitely beautiful and unique. It seems that's the first time I'd ever seen such an ebony girl with a beautiful face and even more beautiful heart. Your beautiful long wavy dark hair that was tied back with a bow really intoxicated me. I must confess, I have fallen in love with you, my dear. I could only see myself gravitate to you. I really resonate with you, no doubt. It appears that our lives are like a 'plural subject' with a 'singular verb' under the rule of concord for LOVE Nupur.
Nupur, I don't even know how to tell this but … From the first time we talked to each other I knew you were special. And the first time we met, words cannot even explain. I was so nervous; until I saw you. It seemed so natural, like we've known one another for years. Truth is, it's been just under six weeks. I never knew I could feel this strongly about someone this soon, but you've proved me wrong. Every time I see the beach or a sunset I think about that night. I think about that day and night all the time. From the first time I saw you until the last kiss of the night. I'm so in love; I get this warm sensual feeling every time I think of you. When I sleep at night, all I can dream about is you. I wish I could hold you in my arms. I dream of the day when I could kiss you passionately on your soft sweet lips and listen to your heart beating because it's sweet music to my ears. All I can say is let me be the one you love; let me be the one whose love you need.
I want you here with me, if only for one night. I live day to day thinking of you. I picture in my mind everything about you, as if you were really here beside me. When I fall asleep I dream that you're next to me and I can feel your skin underneath my hand. I dream of you running your hands through my hair, down my back, and over every part of my body. I want to share my bed with you. My world is spinning; I can feel defeat, why can't I sleep? Why does my throat close whenever you speak? My heart breaks just to be around you. I take in the way you move, the way you talk, and the way you smell whenever you are around. My eyes directed down when your gaze falls upon me, that bashful smile - I want you so badly! This tension, it kills me. My unspoken attraction is enough to fill up volumes.
How can I get close to you? I'm too shy to talk to you; so at this moment it feels safer to watch you from afar with no rejections. You have taken up residence in my mind. I want so badly for you to tell me everything I want to hear but you won't. I want you to tell me that you want me, but you won't. Every time I think of you I can feel the butterflies fluttering inside me. You don't notice me or the way I look at you; maybe it's 'cause you only see me as a friend and nothing more, but when I look at you, nothing could turn my eyes away. At night I lay in bed and dream of you coming to my door grabbing me in your arms and kissing me. I dream of you and me lying side by side; running my hands down your chest, across your stomach ... feeling every inch of you with my fingers. I imagine kissing you all over your body. Whispering in your ear how badly I want you. I want you to hold me and I want to hear your voice. I imagine being wrapped in your arms and pressed against your chest. I would want you making me feel like part of you ... and every time we touch; we would feel like we were the only two in existence. As we lay there I would beg you to make love to me over and over.
But, as I sit here watching the sun set into the horizon, my heart sinks with it. My pain is my entire fault; when will I learn? You would never want me. I'm not perfect, beautiful, or anything important. I have to let the dream of you and me go, for I am a woman with an unrequited crush
Admiration
It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing gift of life to me Nupur.
To me, you're a rose that should be protected from thorns around lest they prick you. You're an angel that shouldn't be hurt. You are my sunrises and sunsets. You're also honey that should be covered against contaminants. By the grace of God, I'm ready to do whatever it takes to make you happy, I promise. I'm in earnest when I say I love you. I usually rhapsodize about your outstanding natural beauty among my friends. Your beauty hits me with a ' highly attractive force'. Undeniably, I love you and cherish you for you're an Angel personified. I'm longing to clasp you to my bosom very soon to soothe my ailing soul. You are a really great person that has allowed me to realize a lot of things in life. I appreciate and thank you dearly. I'm here and always will be. You've showed me true love, something no one has ever done. I just need your resolute “A Real Yes from your Heart" please, Nupur.
You are my knight in shinning armor. I wouldn't be where I am today, if it weren't for you reaching out and helping me. I will never forget you nor the things you have done for me. You are the "best" in my eyes and in my heart. I love every moment we share together and I love the small talks we share. I do hope one day, our friendship will grow into love. No matter whatever becomes of "us" I will always hold you in my heart. You are a life saver and a great friend.
The above-stated utterances and delightful contemplation of something worthy are inexpressible on my part because I was made to understand such sublime and noble qualities are inherent with you. I am very serious now in telling you that I can no longer endure such extreme anxiety and sleepless nights that I am experiencing right of this moment. Since I met you I felt I was living in a new and wonderful world, full of love. And the sun is brighter, the pastures became greener and everything I do was magnificent. You should inculcate and instill in your mind that "I cherish you so much". My love for you, like everything, deserves to be given much attention and care in order to grow and I require your support forever Nupur.
Yes, it is love that has taken root in my heart. But I have been so foolish to hug delusions to my heart and fight with my brain. I should not have persisted even when I saw the shadow of your winsome smile. Let me console myself that I have loved you in name only, a way that lingers only in imagination, in a mere dream, in fantasy, the creation of mind. Here I am still longing for your attention to be only mine as still every moment I have a fear of losing you. I love you… I die for you…You don’t know how much you mean to me, and how much I am thankful to you for coming into my life. You are something I never thought could exist for me. You are one of the best things that has happened in my life, and I don't regret being with you Nupur.
I love you so much and you just don't know it. Sometimes I get scared to show it. It feels like when you come around me my mouth becomes grid-locked and all the words I want to say just stop. My lips clutter because my love is so strong, and the words that I want to say just won't be said. Sometimes I want to open up to you and tell you how I feel - I guess I am too scared to open up and be real. I know you love me and you have hidden feelings inside too. It seems like it is easier for you to express yourself to me than it is from me to you. I love you, and know that I will always have hidden feelings for you which I won’t be able to show because of the responsibilities I have been stuck into. How I wish words could express the thoughts that I have towards you. If I should say I love you then the greater percent of my words are still unexpressed. But of course, I must say something ... my heart beats for you, and my heart longs for you Nupur.
Confessions
You once told me that I am a fool for falling for a girl like you! Well, if you feel that way - I accept, I am a fool, but the fact remains that I have fallen for you and I can't change that! At that very moment I felt that .. and understood that …I want you to know that I would much rather have you in my life and take a chance at losing you than not having you at all and wondering throughout, what it would have been like between us! What I'm always feeling for you is - would you take a chance with me Life will be heaven on earth. Sweetheart, will you be my girlfriend always.
Thanks for everything you gave me. I really felt so lightened inside with your concern for me that I melted. I could say nothing but to just stare at your natural beauty. I wish we could go out together one day and we could have our nights by the bay and that I could pour out my feelings to you. Thank you, you awaken me, deep inside. Even if you don't love me, I'll always wait for you and no matter what, you are in my heart... no matter what happens. I hope I'll be able to hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you. That's all I need from you. I love you and that's a promise to you Nupur.
It has been a long time since we are together and every moment adds to my desire for you. I can't believe how long I've been loving you and how long I contained my love for you. The look of your eyes and that smile that you gave me melted my heart away. Those smooth cheeks you have, oh, I wished I could've given you a kiss right away. As soon as I see your face, my knees go weak, my heart throbs hoping to feel you around me. Your Heart is perfection and to me it does not matter whether you like me or not , but my love for you will surely increase with every moment with you Nupur.
Since I met you I felt I was living in a new and wonderful world, full of love. And the sun is brighter, the pastures became greener and everything I do was magnificent. You should inculcate and instill in your mind that "I cherish you so much". Such love, like everything, deserves to be given much attention and care in order to grow more and more Nupur.
At first I was confused, didn't really know what I wanted, I didn't know if I would want to take a chance again and actually take you seriously. So, I decided to come close to you as a friend and find out who you truly were and what you were like. You seemed cool, nice and funny some things I really liked in a companion. So I took a chance and got with you. In the beginning, things didn't seem that well, I actually had my doubts about you. I wasn't sure you were actually taking me seriously. But, it was too late to look back; I had already fallen for you since the day I met you and I wasn't really looking forward to giving up too soon. I tried so hard to have you, and now I am not going to let you go so easily Nupur.
Truthfully and undoubtedly, I can fool anyone but I cannot fool myself. I would be a great liar if I uttered that I'm not in love with you. No matter what you think or say, all I can say is; I really love you with all my heart and I will not hesitate if you will give me just a little time to prove my feelings of endearment and to prove to you that I'm deserving of your feelings, from your heart. My dearly beloved, Nupur, you became so honorable in my eyes, like a precious gem, counted with extremely good intellectual reasoning makes me emotionally struck and speechless.
Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you. My heart has already found its way to you. I want you and no one else. You mean everything to me. I think we should try and make this work. You have to know you're the one, and only one I want. Not only are you perfect for me, you're the most perfect friend and I hope we can and will be more. I could never ask for better then what we have had. I am hoping you're feeling the same way because my heart is set on you, and only you Nupur.
As now we have been friends for such a long time now. Everyday spent with you is like a wonderland of new surprises. I have sat back, watched, and listened to you fall in love so many times. If you only knew that there is a true love waiting for you that will never die or grow tired and will always wait for you. You make me feel brand new; a hug from you is like being lifted into heaven. But these are words I'll never say, and so I will just continue to sit back and love you in silence. You don’t know but you are the reasons for my smiles. You are the reasons for my tears and my fears. You, my love, are the reason I wake up each day, and sleep each night. You are my reason for living my life. You, my love, are the only reason for my happiness. I want you; I need you; I love you! Life is incomplete and unbearable without you now. Life is yours do with as you may, but remember, my love, it's for you always, whether you accept it or not Nupur.
Well, time has passed and I have discovered new things and a new me. You have truly changed me. Still, in a way, I'm scared 'cause I am actually growing a true feeling inside my heart which I just cant explain, but I know it's there waiting for you to come and uncover it. I truly don't know what your feelings are but I don't want to force you in telling me what you don't feel towards me. I would want to receive love and trust from you when you truly mean it. All I ask from you is to show me you care and not hide anything, to also have trust in me the way I do in you. Every time I think about you, it gives me more and more strength with which to carry on my life. It makes me happy to be alive knowing that you have come into my life and all I know is that I want to be with you Nupur.
After all that's happened to me in the past years, I swore to God, that I would never settle again and that I would never give my heart and my life completely to another. With great content and zero disparity, I take it back. You have become a beacon to me. Whenever I feel as though I've drifted too far into the disparity that clouds my life, I can look up to find you guiding me to safety. I am ready to stay any place regardless of the conditions provided you are with me because you are my world my affection for you grows each and everyday. I am totally addicted to you, and you're the only drug that kept me from dying. When I looked into those eyes of yours, I saw the real me, a person that lives for a goal and a purpose. I pray hard each day, just to hope that you and I can be in a relationship that is more than just friends someday. For now, I've declared my love for you and I will be right here waiting for you always Nupur.
That night that our paths crossed was as if a magnetic force joined us. It seemed as if I forgot to wake up that morning and face true reality. As our eyes connected it seemed too fresh and real to be a dream. The fire, the strength, the longing to be loved, words were not needed as we stared and watched as the world closed in and stopped at these two souls connected like the center point of an eye. I remember when we first spoke, as if we have known one another for years. Our conversations went on as if the seasons were changing with no disconnection of the line. Never could I have asked the Lord for anything more assuring or hypnotizing than the soothing tone of your voice and the words lingering off them. You made my days sunny even though the nights rained on endlessly. We completed one another; you thought that no good woman existed and then you met me. How I long for you to know that the feeling is mutual, that I have never met a man that can read though me and explore my inner core. Please keep in mind that I will not take your heart that I hold, for granted. I will replace it with mine, so you know I wouldn't be able to breathe without it. You are a splendid jewel she released and I grasped. Never would I let a soul take you away or bring harm near you. The day I looked into the blue recesses of your soul - correction: my soul, I knew no force could ruin the joining of two souls.
Soul mates do exist and now I have learned that there is beauty behind all imperfections. It took us both years of hurt and pain and it has paid off. It's true when they say, "God makes you meet a few wrong people, before you meet the right one, so you will be able to appreciate and understand their worth."
Thank you, Nupur, for all that you have given me and that you continue too…..
Please reply my Questions as my love will never end …
I wish I could read your beautiful mind and see what your love for me is. I love you with all my heart and yet I have no idea if you feel the same way. My heart is ready to split in two because I need you and yet I don't know if you need me. Please, from the bottom of my heart to the height of my will, I confess my everlasting love for you and hope you will respond likewise.
I know we haven't been dating that long, not officially, but I want you to know that I love you from the bottom of my heart. From the moment I first met you, I knew that I wanted you in my life, whether as a friend of something a little more. Baby, I prayed for a long time to find someone like you. Someone willing to fight for me, someone to make me smile and someone who I know truly loves me. You're in my thoughts, my dreams, and every breath I take. I know truly that this is love. I feel like I can tell you anything. I may not always want to, but you know things about me that even my best friend doesn't know. You're always there to pick me up when I fall, and to dry my tears. You make my heart pound so fast and I can't even catch my breath. You give me goose bumps all over my body and you're all I think about. I've never had a love like this before and I've never felt this way. I want to keep you forever. Thank you, for everything Nupur.
I just had to let you know that these last weeks without so much as talking to you has given me a lot of time to think about how I feel about you. I have decided that I am definitely, hopelessly in love with you. What made me realize this is not so much that I think about you all the time, though I do. It was how I think about you. Not only do I think about how much I love you, but why, how much, and mostly do I deserve to be loved by you. It just feels so lucky to finally be able to love you like I have been wanting to for so long. Your sweet lips leave me speechless with each perfect kiss. What have I done to deserve this? And that is another thing I was thinking - It is a little too strange, I think, that we are so right for each other. Some might want to argue this, but I have a few examples for those poor misguided souls. Your smile is like a world-famous painting. When we kiss, it is like two lost puzzle pieces finally discovered after a search to make the puzzle complete. When we hold each other, time seems to stand still. When I look into your eyes I see the love in your heart reflecting on my own. All of this tells me one thing ... our love is real Nupur.
I just hope you understand the depth of my every word. You know I've tried every other thing to tell you how I feel about you except the phrase: "I love you." I'm doing this to avoid you being embarrassed. I can say I'm not 100% sure you feel the same way as I do, but I know that you care for me and love me too somewhere in your heart. Maybe the past time and my ever growing feelings for you between us now is making things more difficult. However, I believe, my love, that if by coincidence you read this confession, you know I am saying this to you. I love you and always will. I can't help but tell you this whether you love me or not I will always love you till the last moment of my life and if you also love me the same I will be the luckiest guy on the world who has won your love Nupur.
But... where do I begin and where do I end? I've had you in million of my thoughts. I tell you a million times a day, each day, that I love you and that you mean the world to me. Although you reciprocate these feelings, I'm sure you have no real understanding on the magnitude of exactly what they mean to me. No one in this world knows the feeling that I get when I see you. They have no idea about what you get my body to do when I hear your name or hear that sweet soft voice of yours. Nobody has ever made me feel like the way you make me feel and that is such a crazy feeling. It feels like I just want to grab you and be in your arms forever and forever and never let go. I want to kiss your lips and never end - just keep going. You are my very best friend, my lover, my protector, my teacher and my absolute soul mate. I give my life to you: mind, body and soul. I will you to hold me for the rest of my life as you do each and every day and night. I belong to you now....Nupur. My beautiful love, come to me and make me the happiest man in the world! If you're asking me if I love you this much, my beautiful gal, I do! Marry me, Beautiful ... come spend eternity with me Nupur??
As I sit and think about you and what you and I have been though, I see that I can only love you more and more every day. You're my inspiration each and every day. You are what keeps me going when I just want to give up. You are my meaning for life and love. I love the way that you love me, in each and every touch and kiss. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have you. You're my life's dream come true. My wish for you is that you could feel all the passion and love that I carry around in my heart and soul for you. You have won my love and soul. You have gotten it all, even my heart. You make me feel like I am in heaven in the arms of an Angel. You and I have an amazing relationship, but as it goes on I wonder which is it ... friends or lovers? That is our uncertainty. We've been friends for a while and now the friendship isn't that anymore for me. I have fallen in love with you and don't know how much you love me... Just tell you that I am your soul mate masquerading as your best friend Nupur.
I just want you to know that these are my feelings and are more eloquent than words. I am a little bit confused on how and what to do just to eradicate from my vivid mind your charming and beautiful face. The more time I spend with you the more I like everything about you and the more I want to find out all about you - how you think, how you feel, what your dreams are and everything nice from you. If I could only do something just to persuade you. I cannot study well, and everything I wish to do was left undone because of this unexplainable emotion. I promised myself before, not to see you anymore or talk to you - just to forget you, but these promises never materialize. My admiration was still bubbling within me these past lonely days without you Nupur.
Yes, I keep thinking about the future, about life, and what I want out of it. I keep thinking about us and what this relationship means to me. I keep thinking about these things and I realize they go hand in hand. This relationship is my future; it's what I want out of life. I want to grow old with you. I want to experience this crazy love forever and ever, and I really think I'm going to get to. I want us to walk through new houses picking the one that would be just right for us. I want to see you walk around our house in a big t-shirt with your hair down and catch me staring at how gorgeous you are. I want you to pull the covers off me at night and then I have to get even closer, if it's possible, to you to keep warm. I want to see you laugh like crazy at me when I do stupid stuff. I want to rub lotion all over your body because you laid out in the sun too long. I want to have a child with you and go through the experiences of parenthood with you. I want to see you and me chasing our little kid around the house, all three of us laughing our heads off and having fun. I want to hold you when you cry and smile with you when you smile. I want to fall asleep every night with you in my arms. I want you to fall asleep on my chest listening to the beat of my heart and know it beats for you I want you to be the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I see when I go to sleep. I want to see your bad morning hair; I think it will be so cute. I want to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set, and I want all the people who pass us to envy the love that we obviously have for each other.
I want to see you walk down that isle and I want to take your hand for the rest of my life. I want to spend all night, and maybe the next day, making love to you with an undying passion (sorry to be so blunt). I want to be thirty years old and still make out with you like a little schoolboy. I want to cook a meal with you and us totally ruin it and end up doing take out. I want to sit there talking to you for hours about nothing at all but in the same time everything or maybe we won't talk at all and just grin at each other realizing how lucky we are. I want you to get mad at me for doing something stupid, and I want you to bust out laughing when you try to yell at me. I want to lay with you in front of a fireplace and keep the heat going long after the fire goes out. I want to take trips with you to places we've never been and experience them together. I want us to go skinny-dipping in a hotel pool and get caught and streak back to our hotel room waking everyone up because we're laughing so hard. I want us to go and pick out the hot tub we want with the biggest grins on our faces the whole time. I want the sales rep to get embarrassed when we sit in them and make sure we have enough room to do the things we want to do. I want to hold your hand and let you scream at me while you bring our child into this world. I want our friends to come over and get totally jealous because they don't share a love like we do. I want to be walking into a store with you and trip and fall on my face and turn around to see you rolling on the ground laughing at me. I want us to run outside in the rain and act like total kids getting completely soaked, and when we come back in stripping down to nothing as we stumble into the bedroom, or the kitchen counter, or the balcony, or the dining room table, or an office desk, or the shower, which ever one we feel like at the time.
I want it to take your breath away every time I say, "I love you" because you know it's coming from the heart. I want us to be sitting there and watching our child take their first steps from my arms into yours. I want us to sit down with a box of strawberries, a bottle of chocolate syrup, and a thing of mint chocolate ice cream; well, I'll let your imagination finish that one. I want to love you and be with you for at least forever if not a little longer. I couldn't really express in words what I'm feeling right now so I decided to share with you SOME of the images and thoughts that have been running through my head. I just want you to know that I had never found someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with until I met you. I really am crazy about you, everything about you.
You are the most incredible woman I have ever met. You're so outgoing and friendly, and you always have so much to say. You're so sweet and your heart is so big. I have never met anyone with a heart like yours, and I love you for it. You're the type of girl that when you walk into a room, all eyes fall on you and everyone lights up; you're the type of girl that men dream of when they close their eyes at night; you're the type of girl, guys can't wait to bring home to mom, and you're the type of girl, who I myself dream of spending the rest of my life with. I hope someday I gain enough courage to tell you the way I feel to your face, because losing you to someone else would crush me. I love you, always and forever, Nupur.
I know that things could never be the same again but that's what life is about... taking risks! I could make you so happy. There's more to life than just sitting around waiting for something to happen; life will then just pass us by. My heart is hungry for your love, but my mind is aware of what it cannot have. I know we belong to different worlds so then why did you come and change everything around in my life? I thought I didn't want to love again, I thought I wouldn't be able to since my heart has hurt so much. To even say I do - it's a scary thought, but you came along and I became fearless of it.
It's hard to explain myself or to put it together in one, the only easy thing to think of, is loving you. For just one look into your eyes makes everything in the world and in my life seem to disappear. You make me want to see the sunrise every day, to know it's another day where I can maybe have you by my side. I know faith can make this work someday if I just keep up my hope, 'til then I'll think of you just like now; your touch will forever caress me with tenderness, and your kisses will keep the flame in my heart alive in hope that one day you and I will be together...
I will keep loving you as long as the sun keeps shining, the stars keep brightening the sky, the winds keep blowing, the snow keeps falling, and the flowers keep smiling. I humbly request you, Nupur, be mine. Loving you forever.... Whenever you will fight with me I will be on my knees begging for love, not to a stranger but to one I know .. I've been in love and know its fun. Each moment I will hope and pray that you'll be mine forever more. I know it's hard to trust a man - giving your heart, body and soul, but know it's me that's on my knees swallowing my pride, begging you, please ... once again I will surely make you mine.
Lastly I promise to do whatever you want ..whenever you want , wherever you want …I will do whatever I can for you .. forever and ever and ever and ever ….
With loads of love ... Karan
Friday, February 20, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Some wishes remain unsaid.
Happy Birthday Dear !!
God gave a gift to the world when you were born—
a person who loves, who cares,
who sees a person’s need and fills it,
who encourages and lifts people up,
who spends energy on others
rather than herself,
someone who touches each life she enters,
and makes a difference in the world,
because ripples of kindness flow outward
as each person you have touched, touches others.
Your birthday deserves to be a national holiday,
because you are a special treasure
for all that you’ve done.
May the love you have shown to others
return to you, multiplied.
I wish you the happiest of birthdays,
and many, many more,
so that others have time to appreciate you
as much as I do.
I wish for you the fulfillment
of all your fondest dreams.
I hope that for every candle
on your cake
you get a wonderful surprise.
I wish for you that
whatever you want most in life,
it comes to you,
just the way you imagined it,
or better.
I hope you get as much pleasure
from our friendship as I do.
I wish we were sisters,
so I could have known you
from the beginning.
I look forward to
enjoying our friendship
for many more of your birthdays.
I'm so glad you were born,
because you brighten my life
and fill it with joy.
of peace and tranquility
to every life they touch.
They are always who they really are.
They are blessedly reliable,
dependably good,
predictably pleasant,
loved and treasured
by all who know them.
You are one of those people.
You are a gift
of peace and tranquility
in my life.
I’m thinking about how much light and sparkle
you freely dispense wherever you go,
how your sunny smile lights up any gathering.
Every birthday marks another year
of you radiating positive, happy energy,
contagious happiness
that infects all who come in contact with you.
May your next birthday find you the same--
glowing from within,
beaming bright joy on everyone you meet.
I feel blessed to know you.
Or tallying the years,
Contemplate your blessings,
As your birthday nears.
Who love you, and who care,
And others who’ve enriched your life
Just by being there.
Passing years can never mar,
Experiences great and small
That have made you who you are.
So cut your cake, and say,
"Instead of counting birthdays,
I count blessings every day!"
a gentle, sweet, beautiful friend
who is always a pleasure to be with.
You glow with sensitivity and compassion
generated from the depths
of your warm heart and and kind soul.
A loving Friend, a peacemaker,
a lady full of the joy of life,
that's you.
Anyone who spends time with you
is privileged to know
such an extraordinary person.
You are a great joy in our lives.
We love you and cherish you and treasure you
and wish that every one of your birthdays
will be the happiest yet.
On your special day,
I’m thinking of all the wonderful things you are
that bring so much joy to others, including me!
I celebrate your unconquerable spirit,
that lets you meet every challenge
with confidence, enthusiasm and persistence.
I admire your sensitivity.
You see needs that cry out to be met
that no one else sees,
and you meet them,
out of your deep and caring heart,
out of your wisdom,
out of your strength.
I treasure your uniqueness;
There is no one else like you,
and I feel blessed to know
such an extraordinary person.
I appreciate you, respect you,
cherish you, look up to you.
Happy, happy birthday!
May each new birthday
be the best one ever for you;
You deserve it!
and I’m thinking how glad I am
that you were born.
You have given me so much--
supported me, encouraged me,
cared for me; I didn't even need to ask.
I celebrate your wonderful self!
I am in awe of your boundless generosity,
your infinite kindness--that gentle inner glow
that you so freely use to warm my life.
Your birthday is as much a celebration for me
as it is for you, maybe more,
and I wish for you the best of birthdays,
the best one ever.
May each birthday be better than the last.
Most of all, I hope you will always be
As happy as you have made me.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
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